Secrets in denial

Space is a wonderful thing, I have a slight unhealthy obsession with planets and stars and depthless black holes. The way it makes me feel so irrelevant and immaterial. The sheer overwhelming size of it all. The star studded universe with a million other planets and parallel earths. How could one not be fascinated by its ambiguity ? Our galaxy is perfect, a swirl of frothy cream in the inky abyss of vacuum. how perfectly the planets align and how beautifully the moon shines. Space is a wonder to behold. I used to think it was stupid of men and women alike to spend their time aimlessly thinking about their love, plucking the petals off of flowers and writing exaggerated poems and ballads about their true loves brows. but once you find your love, its hard not to spend every waking moment thinking about them, their eyes, the touch of their skin against yours, the graze of their lips against yours. The sudden rush of blood to your cheeks and goosebumps that accompany your smi

I've been feeling down lately, feeling off the hinge, provoked at the slightest. I don't know if its just me or something else. Waking up is a chore, I just want to curl up into a ball wearing fuzzy socks. I don't want to go through the same old arduous routine everyday, the same old narcissistic people and same old revolting society. There's nothing to do, I keep finding myself pondering my existence and life's greatest questions to no avail, I find myself staring into space just living through my dreams. Life has lost its magic, it's let go of me and I wander lost not knowing what to do. I want to curl up and sleep forever. Do you guys know how unfair it is that I have to live in a permanently hot country ? I'll never know the comfort of lying down near the glowing embers of a fire and drinking warm creamy drinks on a cold winters night. I consider it a really unfair. I've never been the summer girl, always attracted to the cooler and gor

  Well if you are here that must only mean one thing, you are reading this. I'm Nikole a 14 year old nobody. Welcome to my blog. This is my first time actually legit blogging if you don't count my tumblr. but then again I don't really post my written opinions on tumblr do I. Enter, stranger, but take heed, you are wandering into where you cannot return.   Well I guess I'm not really that sorry because I stopped regretting things ages ago, but this picture was a perfect for the moment when I saw it. I've changed a lot, in opinion and choices after I found the Tumblr lord. I don't mean the getting used to seeing genitalia or the people procreating. I mean to say I've become more open towards things I won't have even dared talk about a year ago. Tumblr has made me, me.      Winter is here, but I have the extreme unfortunate luck of being born in an asian country. I can only try to feel like my feet are freezing while I blog away the rain